thank you shevie.. I tried to say something similar to someone else last night and they said that that was my junkie inside talking.. argh... if it'd been my junkie talking then it would've been saying something more like "it was so good smoke another!" lmao not "cough cough blech! what are you thinking!" lmao!!!
*hugs* everyone...
Okay not really.. lol... here's the story tho and boy do I feel pretty dumb...
Last fall I was under a ton of stress, and felt like I was falling apart.. well my dr prescribed me Xanax... a really LOW dosage like .25 mg pills I think.. well I never took them.. I was scared of wanting one every time I was going bonkers.. now I was smoking back then w/out really considering quitting that seriously so it was kind of like eh oh well..
Anyways.. I forgot all about them... and then last night when I was going up the wall I gave in to my junkie and slipped and smoked... well it tasted horrible and I'm not going to smoke again.. but had I remembered that I still had that Xanax (less than 6 mos old and I know the exp date was for a yr or so) I probly would've popped one instead of smoking... DUUUHHH!!!!
now I wouldn't pop one for every time the thought crossed my mind but I sure as heck would've taken one yesterday had I thought of it... so that's why I'm a moron LOL.. Just wanted to share!
Pamala, if you had popped the pill you wouldn't have experienced how nasty smoking is. Now the last memory you have of smoking is bad. Maybe it was for the best. :)
Shevie
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 5/23/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 312
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 6,249
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1185.6
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 58 [B]Hrs:[/B] 6 [B]Mins:[/B] 9 [B]Seconds:[/B] 4
Mystik,
The important thing is you learned from this! Get back in there and keep your mechanisms by your side!
Keep Strong,
Josie
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The SSC Support Team.
