i've always known that anger has been my trigger to do self destructive things...today is no different. i know about HALT, but when i'm hungry... i'm angry cuz i'm hungry, when i'm lonely..i'm angry cuz i'm lonely, and when i'm tired...i'm just angry at everything and everybody.
right now, i'm just angry cuz i want to smoke, and it's not an option. and i truly know that it IS an option...if i choose to self-destruct. i guess i'm choosing not to, because i'm here rambling. but venting works...so a bit more of my "vent" to remind me~~
i have copd and am disabled...i need 5 surgeries to become "able-bodied", but no surgeon will touch me with the shape my lungs are in. i will forget my reasons for wanting the quit...please help me to remember!
happy monday all!
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 5/15/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 0
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 0
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $0
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 0 [B]Mins:[/B] 0 [B]Seconds:[/B] 0