awesome post, Joe......
I too was at the beginning, like everyone else, 75 days ago (has it really been that long??) reading and posting and asking "when will these feelings go away?" "when will I stop craving a cigarette?" "will I ever be "normal"?"
Well.....it happened. And the trick? Stop thinking of cigarettes as something you miss, that you are "forbidden" to have, that you "use to have when you felt like this"...........the trick is [i]just stop thinking about them. [/i]
Oh, the "craving" for one will rear it's ugly head every so often, just to let you know that you truly are STILL an addict, that it's a forever thing, but it's just a nit, not a real "in the beginning type" craving, it's a momentary blip of a need, and then it's gone. Just like that. And then you are back to normal. Finally.
Normal........wow......I'm now someone who can walk a block without being winded, who can walk past someone and they smell my perfume/shampoo/soap instead of the last cigarette I power smoked outside during my break! I no longer worry about my blood pressure, or what my doctor is going to say (besides congratulations) or that I had better go brush my teeth and wash my hands because my non-smoking husband made a face as I walked past him after being outside.....I don't have to worry about forgetting/running out of cigarettes, the rising cost of maintaining this habit, the guilt at the $$$ spent and so on and so on ad infinitum.
It's an amazing freedom to be a non-smoker. I just came back from 10 days of travel - 10 days of running from one airport to another and sitting there waiting and waiting and waiting.........there was one gentleman in the JFK airport who was FURIOUS at one of the gate agents because apparantly JFK doesn't have indoor smoking, and it's not terribly convenient to go outside and then back in thru security in one of New York's busiest airports! Boy.....been there - not the ragging out at the agent part, but the two or three trips thru security after having that "last cigarette" before boarding. My seatmate must have been [b]THRILLED[/b] about having me sit beside them! :gasp:
To everyone who has made the decision to quit, has started the journey - it is not easy. It IS as simple as not smoking ever again, but it is not easy.