You never know when you are going to 'pop' out of your good mood while going strong. Just when you think you are cruising along going so well in your quit, the day, the hour, the moment, COMES and slaps you silly all over the place. You don't quite know how to handle it or what to do, after all you are past the first two weeks and two months. But here I am at almost 90 days, the 3 month mark, and for some reason I felt the wildest craving earlier today. I am still not 100% settled down from it either, but I am coping and working hard to keep from being triggered again. I went and triggered my own self earlier because my perception of time was off and the illusion that I actually had some sort of control over the time that I have caught up with me and made me take a 'reality check'.
"Time alone is unimportant. It is what you do with the time that is given to you that matters most." That was similar to a quote from a famous wizard in one of the most popular movies on earth and it struck a very deep chord in me because I knew immediately that he had just spoken one of the key's to living an enriched life.
The time that I spend in here is so important because of who we are, what we represent to each other along with the importance of others just discovering this site coming in, and the quality of life that results from the exact mission we are all on together. This journey is quite the narrow path up the mountain and there is no monument in comparison to it. It is by far the longest and most treacherous journey one will ever encounter with one's self. It is different when you are travelling somewhere in the outside world, the experience is quite different. You can drive anywhere in your own country, take a train or a plane anywhere in the world for a nice trip every so often, but the chance one has to go WITHIN one's self is always there, waiting for you to enter, but it is rather a choice that is well less made.
"How do you pick up the threads of an old life? How do you go on, when in your heart you begin to understand there is no going back..." Another great quote (same movie). I am reflecting on these things because this is the first time I have been able to experience them first hand with my new smoke-free life. There is no going back love, it's just
