I had a utterly embarrassing 'first time pulling over' panic attack years ago. I literally stopped in front of this lady, stopped the car, ran to her car in a freaked out state and surly scared her - 15 years ago panic attacks weren't as well known - she had to take me home. And, there was a time in Manhatten when I totally freaked out in the city with a boyfriend of mine and he had to call a hotel doctor - I could go on and on - but, let us think of the progress we have made - if I think too much about all the trash of the past, it gives me anxiety. So, we are here, we are fine and we are sending positive signals of our survival and supportive natures to each other and whoever else is out there.
Maria :-)
P.S. I do not have alot of friends I confide in, because it is a very hard issue to understand - it takes a very special person to jump on this ride.
I think they are few and far between, they might want to ride for awhile, like the people we sign up to help us in times of dire need, but, they don't call back.