In my haste to get my latest craving off my chest, I failed to give you some insight on my smoking habit. I've been smoking since I was about 17. I'm married and have three sweet kids, 12, 10 & 5. They are the main reason (and my husband) that I am quitting. My husband has a chronic health condition that was diagnosed 5 years ago (a brain malformation/seizure disorder) and is on disability and probably will be for the rest of his life. The cigs have been my "friends" while I am dealing with the stress of this lifestyle. I realize it's selfish because I'm doing myself no good, nor my family any good. I fully realize that if I don't quit and something happens to me, i.e. a smoking related illness, cancer, etc. my kids and my husband will be sunk. The hardest part about quitting for me is that I'm pretty much a "single parent" without being a unmarried. Therefore, it's just usually me and the kids and I keep the house running. To me, the smoke is my "reward" (kind of a sick thought that something so unhealthy for me can be termed a reward) for getting through the "moment" whatever that may be---running kids around all day, getting him to the docs, while waiting outside at the hospital....you get the picture. I know we all have our stressors and that everyone will always have stress in their lives, but other than the obvious answers (exercise, meditation, etc.) how do you consistently turn to something else for the solace that cigs bring to me??? Although I keep caving in over the past week, I truly am committed to quitting, and am trying not to beat myself up too much for my transgressions. A dear friend recommended this website and credited it with him being able to quit (going on 4 years now!) I pray that the support and insight I will find here will help me as well!
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 9/29/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 1
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 68
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $6.5
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 4 [B]Mins:[/B] 4 [B]Seconds:[/B] 21
