Thanks everyone for your support and feedback. I know I am being unrealistic and expecting too much, too soon. I guess I felt too good the first few days, just from sheer relief to finally have taken the step so I had no where to go but back down to reality. Free, I really love your quote on "worry", it's so true - a real waste of energy for sure but hard to refrain from none the less.In any event, I'm still hanging in there.I have been a miserable "B" lately but I haven't given in. My husband still smokes and that isn't helping but this has to be about me, not him. It helps hearing you all say it gets better. I have 3 weeks today and I really don't want to start over again. Besides, I hate to lose at anything and that's how I'll feel if I smoke again. I really haven't given myself any rewards yet - nothing seems to matter that much. I realize I'm depressed and it pisses me off, but right now I'm just trying to feel whatever it is I have to feel and just keep moving forward. Again, thanks for all your positive thoughts, it really does help.