Sitting here tonight, I am recalling the start of it all. What ever made me even dream that I could do this?
I am old, I should not still feel that I have to prove myself or challenge myself. I should be sure of who I am, and what I still want out of this life. I need not be here fussing about whether I can quit smoking. Besides, I have already done it.
I quit! I really did quit! Over a year ago, actually 15 months. Was it hard?..Well, I didn't die. I never wanted to. but to say it was a cinch, I would not go that far. I was so nervous the week before "the Day". Minute by minute I changed my mind about when, if, why, did I want to do it at all. A couple of nights before I finally got up the courage to write here. Some Duffis answered me and told me to relax. That everyone felt that way. Just stick with it and I could do it. So I read, and read, and read some more. And I stopped. And I didn't light up, I didn't stick a cig in my gob, or have a puff ever.
Once in a while I had a craving, or a moment that I couldn't handle without telling someone about it. So I wrote here, I answered others, and offered them encouragement. And as I went along, I ventured to offer advice. I pulled people up on the wagon, became smober, went to parties, told stories, saw pippers, and wolves and had picnics. I met my friends in the woods, on the beaches, in the mountains, all over the country and a few other places. And we held on to each other.
Some times we talked in the morning, others in the evening, some even the middle of the night. Always someone here. There were occasional misunderstandings because we were extreamly sensitive. But we stuck togeather. We made up slogans, we bought braclets, we shared secreats, and still some came and went time and again.
Sometimes support was gentle and coaxing, at other times tough and demanding. And every once in a while just a good swift kick!
The journey has continued...I hope the friendships will also. ANd because we are friends, sometimes we need a little room to breathe, or some support, or just someone to listen. And to know that we are accepted for who we are.......what ever that might be.
Therefore, I wish for each of you a good journey, whether easy or hard , may it be a journey that last the rest of your live