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First day of summer.
Two seasons down, a lifetime to go.
Hello all.
I'm OKAY, I'VE TURNED THE CORNER WITH THIS QUIT AND I'M FEELING A SECURITY THAT THE ONLY WAY I COULD POSSIBLY START SMOKING AGAIN IS IF I LITERALLY, NOT FIGURATIVELY, SLIPPED AND FELL ON A LIT CIGARETTE WHILE SIMULTANEOUSLY INHALING.
Having said that and for safety's sake and to knock on virtual wood, I'll renew my promise here that:
I will post here for support before I will ever give in and give this fight up. This site and the support provided has been a keystone in maintaining my final quit.
From the beginning with this quit, something has been different. I made a promise to myself to never go back to where I was. I was not in control. Smoking dictated my life and I let it for so long. Because of my addiction and my negative thinking, I lost friends and the girl I loved, but most affecting, I lost myself somewhere along the line.
I promised myself that I would fight this for as long and for as far as necessary. I won't give up ever, but even as I type this, I feel a little nagging fear, that old fear that I'm destroying, the one that says you may get weak, Todd, you may not be able to stand on your own, you may need them (smokes) someday - do you really want to commit yourself to these people who you only know through a website - and what if y3k comes early, where will they be then. Holy crap. These are the last dying whispers of my old addicted self. I am beating this thing. I believed I could and I am. And it's worth it.
Absolutely, Synonyms: actually, categorically, certain, conclusively, decidedly, decisively, definitive, definitely, doubtless, easily, exactly, positively, precisely, really, right on*, straight out*, sure enough*, surely, truly, unambiguously, unconditionally, unquestionably [b][size=4]YES[/size][/b] I do want to commit myself to these people, these souls, that have weathered the storm before, with and after me.
It�s been 6 months since I decided this is it, I want to be in charge again. I want my life back. I don�t want to kill myself and I don�t want to be a slave. The person who I am does not smoke. The person who I am is confident, is health