Struggling big time. My friend having Alzheimer-related Dementia has got my tail. I had to have a talk with myself about it. What I can do and what I can not do. She was good to me. How do I just run now. The fact is that the relationship as I've known it is gone. And it may be gone for good in any form, because I'll have to go through her relatives for now on. She told me to hold off seeing her until after the school year ends. She no longer teaches, and I am taking two online classes for a semester. Many of the things she has said have been really, really wacky. And it all came on so suddenly. She was fine when I saw her at the end of May, really supportive and sweet and all. Then when I saw her again in July, it was like I was seeing someone high on cocaine or something. I decided that smoking doesn't help the crying and sadness, nor does it help me to figure out the role I will play in her life during her remaining years. Supposedly, eight years is average. Three years is on the low side, but she is refusing all treatments. So I'm preparing for the worst. But may not be informed when it happens. She says she's just suffering from stress. Long-term friends she can remember them and their children, because they have been important to her. Frivolous things she can't recall. Well, because they are not important. She's just getting cranky because she's getting old. She's retired and has been doing what she wants. She's been enjoying retirement, and I've been enjoying the fact that I've been enjoying it. I do not know where I stand.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 9/2/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 15
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 633
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $111
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 14 [B]Mins:[/B] 5 [B]Seconds:[/B] 5
