Well...I hate to admit it but after afew pretty good days, I am feeling kind of weepy today.
It's taking a little while to get used to all of these new emotions related to quitting. I am getting used to the "cranky" form of anger which is usually a response to dealing with cravings, having a rough day, etc.
However, I have noticed that, more and more, unresolved issues are coming to mind. As I mentioned in yesterday's post, I had a successful night of drinking without smoking....the part is that when I have a couple drinks, I feel much less inhibited about expressing my thoughts/feelings/opinions....and, to be honest, I think for awhile, I have been feeling angry about certain issues in my life. While it felt good to express the anger at the time (it wasn't directed at the people I was with), I am regretting it now.
I also find that alcohol really does have a depressive after-effect for me. While I enjoy having afew drinks, I tend to feel down the next day. Well, today, for whatever reason, I am feeling weepy.
Obviously, if these issues are on my mind, I need to resolve/address them...but I'm really sure if this is the right time. As I have also said before, I have learn't how to be assertive with the people I work with but have difficulty being assertive with the people I love.
And...to be honest...I'm not even sure if I am angry at them or angry with myself.
Oh well...as you can see...I'm kind of a mess today. Hopefully tomorrow will bring a better attitude!
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 9/11/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 21
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 432
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $105
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 2 [B]Hrs:[/B] 1 [B]Mins:[/B] 12 [B]Seconds:[/B] 54