here lies my problem...one day am so cool and calm, while other days i just want to freak out. i feel like my heads gonna explode! am the type of an anxious person who cant wait to get things done and over with. sometimes i get to the point where in i am becoming a perfectionist. i know this is all wrong but i just cant help it. tried talking to myself to calm me down, deep breathing etc. but its still there. i just cant get rid of it. i got different mood swings that people dont really realize. its like they see me as a jolly person on the outside but deep inside its the other way around. am takin something to calm me down and it works but there are days that it has no effect at all...i guess it depends on the situation i am in. think my minds fatigued or something, everything to me is like a routine. tried changing that routine but i still end up back to square one. i know that am not the only one out there with this problem...or am i??? would you like to share your experiences and how you overcame this kind of a situation. anxiety, panic, depression, its all in my system. is there such a thing as being calm but still you may not know that anxiety is still present? i dont want to be dependent on meds to make me calm knowing that sooner or later there may be side effects. but what can i do??? i think it really helps. i guess its in the environment we are living in right now that makes up all the stress we face. there are times that id rather be alone and talk to no one at all, i feel much relaxed. but there are times am so scared being alone...see my problem, am such a weirdo and i think im becoming a schizo...but im pretty sure im not...i think.
