I, too, remember the jumping out bed in a panic - heart beating out of my chest - feeling like I was in some kind of freaky free fall - running out side in the rain to distract myself and make sure someone was home in case I had call 911 or something!! And, it was in the beginning phases of my 'panic life cycle'. However, those days are gone - after endlessly researching, going to group therapy, finding just the right med to take in just the right dosage - practicing techniques I have learned along the way - I am doing just fine. Not without collateral damage, I must say. Ruined marriage - but, many marriages end for many different reasons - it's not easy - but, with time and 'personal observation' - courage - research - educating yourself on your disorder - you will prevail!! Just remember, the panic attacks will not kill you €“ they always pass €“ they are just so darned uncomfortable and frightening €“ I know €“ hang in there€¦keep posting€¦keep trying to figure it all out €“ and find a good doctor, if you can. One, who, totally understands panic disorders €“ they do exist. But, when you wake up and night with a really bad one €“ try and distract yourself €“ I know while the 'panic' is really blasting it is hard to think of anything else €“ but, if you can just do that one thing €“ find something to distract you €“ I used to bite my finger €“ run outside €“ scream in a pillow €“ and, it really does 'help'. You have to find the techniques that will work for you!!!
Bye for now,
Wanda
