Thank you all for your responses, several of which have been very helpful and informative. Since I first wrote, which now seems ages ago, hanve been looked after at home by visits from community psychiatric nurses who have been a great help. Unfotunately after suicidal thoughts and the fact that my husband could not look after me 24/7 was admitted to a mental health ward, which although sounds extremely frightening and was initially, was the very best thing for me. I stayed there for 3 weeks but convinced I was only there for one and a half as I was so heavily sedated,for the first week, medication consisited of propananol ( beta blockers ), diazepam and chlopromzine, with zopoclone to sleep. But the very best thing were the talks, almost daily with my cpn's, and meeting others in much worse states thaan myself, which allowed me to realise I wasn't going mad, which was my most overiding fear .I followed the panic center programme, which is excellent, and now a week after leaving hospital although not 100% feel much better. Very little fear, the worst being on my own, which is upsetting as I was always a very independant character. Why I'm writing all this I guess is to say that there can be success, with help and as much knowledge as can be got from the net. We're not mad, just some chemical inbalance that needs to be put right. And to ask people to talk about it more freely to others, otherwise we will always be stigmatised. Hope this helps, sure I don't know if i'll have more panic attacks, just hope I don't, maybe I'm one of the lucky ones. Good luck to you all, thanks for the replies and help of the panic center.