I was replying to Windy just now and could not help noticing that I am approaching 2000 cigars not smoked. That is probably equivalent to about 5000 cigarettes in terms of crap and gunk and drug inhaled (ouch......what a horrible thought!).
At five in a pack, thats 400 packs (oh my god!) that at one centimetre thick per pack, would make a pile about 13 feet high. Thats about twice the depth of the grave that I would be occupying earlier than normal if I had kept doing this smoking thing to myself.
I only pop in from time to time now as the thought of smoking is rarely in my head. I'm far too busy with the job of getting the extra few tons of weight off (and that particular battle is going OK at the moment although the thought of a sausage, bacon, tomato, mushroom and egg sandwich keeps drifting in and out).
Having said that, I had a junky thought yesterday. The day did not get off too a good start for all sorts of reasons but the result was that we all left the house in a bad mood over something silly. Whislt driving I saw a girl smoking in her car. For about a millisecond I contemplated a cigar..............
and then for about half an hour I laughed at myself.
You see............I now have a different way of looking at things.
Enjoying a smoke in the car? No.......poor forward vision through smoke in eyes, half the resale value of the car as it stinks and the danger of hot butts in unmentionable places at speed.
Enjoying a smoke after food? No.......that gorgeous girl opposite (feel free to reverse sexes) thinking "bugg*r it he/she smokes....how do I get out of here". Besides.....you couldn't taste the food anyway as you have destroyed your tastebuds.
Enjoying a smoke at break? No.......freezing to death outside with all the other smelly junkies in the horizontal freezing rain because you have to feed the addiction.
Enjoying a smoke for the sake of it? No.......being forced to feed the drug withdrawral as the nicotine decays in the bloodstream and the brain screams for a fix.
Enjoying a smoke after sex? No.......taking your mind off a lousy performance as the poison in your system and the lack of oxygen in your blood affected your ability to "keep it up!"
Enjoying a smoke........? No...............you never "enjoyed" a smoke.