I thought I had my panic attacks under control. Then I had one today. IT didn't last that long, but it is kind of disappointing. I realized that I had forgotten to take my medication for a couple days. I know that isn't a good thing but it is so easy to forget. Boy did I learn my lesson. I realize that I need to find a way to handle conflict and change, but I just don't know how. If anyone has any suggestions that would be great. One of my things is that I need a new job and to get out of my feild, but I live in a small farming community and their aren't much for jobs out here. So it is hard to do. I think I need to go back to school, I just need to figure out what I want to do and I need to figure it out soon. I thought my life was finally going good for once, I was finally happy. I don't know how to prevent this from happening again. When it happens it wears me out. All I do then is want to sleep. If you have any suggestions please let me know.