Have you all noticed that once one negative thought enters your head, it seems to open the door to all it's friends, and relatives, and before you know it they are pouring in from every direction, fighting for your attention? The poor positive thoughts just get stuck in a dark corner trying to get out, but getting stomped on. I must have accidentally let one negative thought in about a week ago, and each day it let in more of it's friends and then they had the odacity to reproduce in a short period of time. Gosh... I'm exhausted. It wasn't easy getting rid of them, and it happened over the course of a few days. I just realized tonight that I feel more like my usual self than I have in the past week. I went from grouchy, to sad, to depressed, to discouraged, to laughing. Roller coaster ride, anyone? Now, I don't think this was all due to not smoking by any means. It was more a case of my letting stress get to me, and once that one negator got in, it just went downhill. The thing I noticed though was that there were about three days where I really wanted to smoke more than I ever have since I quit. I didn't consider smoking, but I realized I had faced several new triggers. Tonight I think I've finally eradicated that last negative thought.
The lesson I learned from all this and my point is that if you stop taking care of yourself, and protecting your positive thoughts as much as you protect your quit, the door opens and in pour the negators. You may not smoke, but it sure makes you feel miserable.
Coming up on my one month - well tomorrow I guess, since there isn't a 31st day in January. Still feeling good. The original euphoria is gone, but so is the slump after the euphoria. Feeling more leveled out now.
Thanks for listening if you actually read all the way through my ramblings!
Thanks to you all! You are great!
Quitters Rock!!
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[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 12/31/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 29
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 298
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $55.97
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 3 [B]Hrs:[/B] 11 [B]Mins:[/B] 12 [B]Seconds:[/B] 1