Hi Ladi79 I didn't Know if I was going to lose my job,just that I was up for removal because of something two rookies did and I got pulled into it becaues I was working with them.The stress and panic I was going though was tremedous I couldn't tell my wife she stresses out and disrupts the whole house.I kept my job through the uion and older employees that spoke up for me.My wife really doen't understand what I go through in high tension situtations.I want to feel good about my self again.Before I got this time off I was working out but sitting at home not being a provider really bothers me I'm just sitting in my own funk.I found a double trouble meeting wensday I enjoyed it I'm going to make all three meeting they have a week.
i feel like i've spent the last few months fearing depression. i have been off anti depressants since dec of last yr.
my life is such a roller coaster and i feel like i've had more downs then ups lately. and i'm thinking about going to my dr's because i'm having a lack of coping skills.
i'm tired of crying, i'm tired of being lonely, and i'm tired of focusing on what i don't have vs. what i do have. i'm normally a very confident person, but lately i've been struggling with self esteem issues.
oh, i'm just so frustrated and angry that all this is happening to me!
