OK I watch children out of my home. Last week I had a horrible cough from a cold. While one of the parents was here picking up their child I was having a coughing attack. My hubby says "have another cigarette" as a smart aleck joke - however he says it IN FRONT OF THE PARENT!!!! Mind you, when I smoked, it was not in my house, I did it outside and the kids never knew. The parents didn't either.
The day after (last Monday), she drops off her kid and says for no reason that she went back to smoking from the stress of her new job. I don't know if it's true or was a trap to find out whether I did or not. I never told her. I figured she could ask if she wanted to. In the meantime I would quit, so if she asked I could tell her I don't.
This morning I get an email saying next week will be her last week. Supposedly she can't afford it, yet her employer pays half of it, so she only ends up paying about $60 a week for three full days. I don't feel that is the real reason.
Well, if she's leaving, then maybe I should go back to smoking anyways. I keep thinking what's the point?? I haven't yet, because I can't get out of the house for another 5 hours. Please somebody help. She was the main reason I had even decided to quit right now. I had been playing with it in my mind, but hadn't decided to yet.
Ohhh I want one so bad right now. I am so angry and so sad - I even cried in front of the kids this morning.
:mad: :(
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/19/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 0
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 0
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $0
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 0 [B]Mins:[/B] 0 [B]Seconds:[/B] 0