Pam,
I have read and re-read your post, not in my wildest dreams did I ever imagine I would be reading a post like this from you....
Pam, there is nothing I can say that is going to help you unless you decide to love yourself and your quit. Pam, you are back to baby steps again, and if that is what it takes then do it.
It is still hard for me to be around people smoking without wanting to smoke. I still have to remove myself from them. Pam, we just might be one of those people that will always struggle. I guess it depends on how much we want to stay quit.
Like many that have responded to your post, I wish I had quit when I was 29. Pam, I am old enough to be your grandmother, and I had smoked for 50 some years. My health is not the best, but I know that it has improved since I quit smoking.
My thoughts and prayers are with you, may your determination return to you soon. Thank you for posting, and know that you are so loved.
With love,
Sunshine
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/7/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 309
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 5,269
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1081.5
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 44 [B]Hrs:[/B] 14 [B]Mins:[/B] 1 [B]Seconds:[/B] 31
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$230,890.50
Amount Saved
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Days: 6423
Hours: 12
Minutes: 12
Seconds: 48
Life Gained
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45608
Smoke Free Days
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684,120
Cigarettes Not Smoked