Nonic,
I'm now entering into Day 5 and I'm still hanging in there with no desire to throw in the towel on my quit. I started over once, I won't do it again.
This time has been far more difficult, hell in fact, than my Valentines Day quit. Day 3 was horrible. I'm sure you've seen my post, "Gloom, Despair, and Agony on Me." ha ha ha I can laugh now but it was NOT funny at all on Day 3. It was a living nightmare filled with one constant, relentless craving and painful withdrawals that absolutely exhausted me. The cravings and withdrawal symptoms were still with me on Day 4 but not as bad.
Nonic, I have no idea why I smoked for 30 years. I know I STARTED smoking because it was the "cool" thing to do. Smoking because I thought it was "cool" was enough to turn me into an addict. If there's an underlying "issue" or "issues" that I need to confront, I'm not aware of them. As far as I know, I started smoking because I thought it was "cool" the "In Thing" to do and that's enough to get kids addicted. Then that addiction is extremely hard to break as we all know. I'm assuming that I smoked for 30 years because I'm an addict and I allowed, in fact, I invited cigarettes to be a part of damn near everything in my life.
I'm sure cigarettes eventually became a crutch for when I was anxious, nervous, sad, angry, or even happy. But I'm still not aware of any underlying, painful "issue" that needs to be dealt with there. As far as I know, those are all emotions that I chose to share with my good ole buddy the smoke. So, I felt a sense of loss without by buddy. Plus, I'm an addict.
You may or may not be right...I don't know. I guess that's something I'll find out in time. But, I'm one of those people that doesn't believe that there has to be a deep, dark, issue behind every problem in life. Often times problems, addictions, and bad choices can be caused by something very simple. Something right there in plain sight without a great deal of deep analysis, probing, or philosophical reasoning. For example: An ignorant, naive kid who thought she looked so cool with a smoke hanging out of her mouth while she hung out with her pals.....her pals who all smoked.
I don't blame my parents either. ha ha ha Sorry guy, I just can't find that underl
