Why now? I've been such a good girl!
The last two days have been especially hard for me. Thoughts of smoking seem to come in waves. There is no real reason, but it is happening. Yesterday I fought it almost all day. Today is a tad bit better, but again I thought more about 'it' than I have in quite awhile.....I know this will pass and believe me when I say I do not think I am at risk of smoking. A smoking co-worker (my enabler in a failed previous attempt) and I met today. She said let's go for a ride. I said only if it is in my car and there is no smoking..I have gone almost 140 days now. So we continued our conversation in the front corridor. I miss seeing her every day as I used to and she told me she misses me, but I told her until I think I am strong enough to be around her smoking, I cannot be with her in a 'smoking allowed' environment. That was a big step for me, especially in the midst of 'my thoughts' lately. This has not happened to me since the steering wheel incident.... I'll have to do a search...that's been quite awhile ago, I think.
Thanks for letting me vent. Golly...I feel so much better already and I have not even hit the 'post new discussion button'.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 9/8/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 131
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 6,590
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1048
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 13 [B]Hrs:[/B] 23 [B]Mins:[/B] 0 [B]Seconds:[/B] 28
