I'm new here, but not new to panic. I was sorry to see that this topic ended a couple days ago. I've been known to have my worst relapses on the first day of school. Spouse at work, kids at school and the dizziness would start and on and on. I was the only mom I knew who hated when summer vacation was over. I don't have to actually describe a panic attack to anyone here, so you all know what I mean. I have a husband who after 31 years of marriage still gets angry because I have panic. I too want him to stay home, when in actuality I should have left him years ago, but that's another story. It's amazing how anxious I feel, then I hear his car pull up and I make a miraculous recovery...until he falls asleep and I'm awake in the middle of the night, then it's back to "Hey, I'm alone again". I used to have a friend in Dallas who stayed up all night and I was able to call him 24/7. Now there's noone to call and when I'm feeling a full blown panic attack, I call Crisis Intervention and ask them to talk to me and tell me I'm not dying. I feel sooooo stupid afterwards and apologize profusely. I've always searched for some kind of "volunteer hotline" to call. You'd think with all of us out there, there would be one. And I'm awake most nights so geeez...I'd volunteer for a couple hours! Doesn't anything like that exist?? Okay, I'm rambling and haven't even read the other topics yet, but this is a good outlet, yes?
