Hold on just one moment Phillip!! There is NOTHING, I repeat [size=4]NOTHING[/size] wrong with you!!! As for taking some time off because you don't want to steer anyone wrong or scare the newbies, don't worry about that! Right now, YOU need help and that's what this support group is here for.
Phillip, yes, this support group IS like counseling in a way, but we are NOT trained psychologists... I have to agree with Rusty. Talk to a counselor! What harm can it do? It can only help? If it doesn't help, it certainly won't hurt you! Why are you so scared to see a counselor? Don't answer that here... just ponder the question for yourself. They may be able to bring some things to light for you that we just can't do. There's NO shame in talking to a psychologist. NONE!
I too had and still have a very difficult quit. Right now, I'm pretty comfortable in my quit, but that comfort sometimes comes and goes and I know that it has more to do with the other things that have happened in my life since quitting (like dislocating my shoulder and losing my job a year ago, moving, going back to school, not making any friends, and then dislocating my shoulder and losing my job again this year and the accident), but oftentimes, if I'm not careful, I find myself blaming my quit for these things. And then, I start having cravings, or smoking thoughts, or triggers or whatever the hell you want to call them, for several days at a time. So basically Phillip, I'm telling you that you're not alone here. There's NOTHING wrong with you! Don't beat yourself up about feeling this way. Take pride in your accomplishments and revel in your success! Be proud of who you are and what you've done! I hope things get better for you soon Phillip.
Crave the Quit!
Pam
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 10/28/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 234
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 5,860
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $966.42
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 17 [B]Hrs:[/B] 0 [B]Mins:[/B] 19 [B]Seconds:[/B] 2
