I am so down, I started the Effexor 5 days ago and I'm so worried that it won't work. This is the 4th med I've tried in 2 years. Some worked for a while and some made it worse. I'm having all the side effects that are expected, racing thoughts, sleepy - but wide awake, nervous, dry mouth, no appetite, weak, and they say they will improve with time and I should just wait it out. I am losing all confidence in myself, I don't feel like I have any control over my thoughts anymore. I feel weak and helpless. I am worried that I will try this for the 2 weeks and it will make things worse and I will be back to square one. I pray for strength all the time, yet I don't feel God's peace. All I do is think of how I feel. I want to be involved in the world again. I don't want to dread going to work. I try so hard at this, I try to remain positive, I try to work the programs and change my thoughts and challenge them. But the worried thoughts don't leave me, I am so tired of them. I don't know what to do, I don't know if I should keep taking the med. It seems like the harder I try to help myself lately the further down the hole I slide. Why is this? How much harder can I try? Thanks for listening, I hate to be such a downer, I just don't know why I feel so bad when I'm trying so hard.
