My whole day began with the thought, "So,,, you're still at it, eh?"
This is when it gets hard. I have'nt been in here much today as I was in a constant argument with my addict. I call it "The Fool".
I'm a lousy passenger in a car because I don't have any control. Its that way for my quit as well.
I won. I still have all 12 of my days, but I am exhausted! Its not the first 3 days or 7 days. Its about the end of Heck week or the beginning of Blah week. I know. Hense the name, right? I wish I could find a way to keep it fresh. I do realize how unrealistic that is.
This, to me, is when we are really put to the test. We have to decide is it really worth it? Is this really what I want?
I scream to the top of my voice (without having to cough, heh heh) "Of course it is!!!" Of course, all this talking and screaming about is going on in my head. We may have to make this decision and stick to it many times in a day.
But, the point is that WE DO! Its not going to stay exciting and fulfilling like it can be in our first few days as ex-smokers. I expect I'll have more days like this one. But you know what? Knowing I did NOT give up my quit is just as fulfilling as my decision to quit.
In fact, this is the best I've ever felt, mentally, with my quit.
Please hang in there everyone! We can get through this! :)Pat.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 12/22/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 12
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 487
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $68.4
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 5 [B]Mins:[/B] 12 [B]Seconds:[/B] 32
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Quit Meter
$95,917.50
Amount Saved
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Quit Meter
Days: 6138
Hours: 14
Minutes: 38
Seconds: 48
Life Gained
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Quit Meter
45675
Smoke Free Days
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Quit Meter
274,050
Cigarettes Not Smoked