Hi Lady.......everyone has said everything....... so just clocking in to let you know that I am thinking of you. Brent [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 12/8/2005 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 375 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 2,628 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] �1875 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 62 [B]Hrs:[/B] 14 [B]Mins:[/B] 1 [B]Seconds:[/B] 47

[IMG]http://i47.photobucket.com/albums/f190/cuddlebug230/thi118630208_20650.gif[/IMG] You are in my thoughts and prayers Cuddles

You're one tough gal; You've proven that over & over again. And always the perfect Lady in spite of it all. Clearly we're all thinking of you & praying for you. Cold Turkey mc [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 8/31/2005 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 474 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 7,116 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1896 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 46 [B]Hrs:[/B] 3 [B]Mins:[/B] 49 [B]Seconds:[/B] 4

I haven�t been around for a while now and thought maybe I should drop by with an explanation. There are so many that I have tried to help along the way and I know I kind of just vanished on you. For that I apologize. Saturday night, I received a dreaded middle of the night phone call. My best friend�s 20 year old son was killed in a head on collision by a drunk driver. This child grew up with my daughter and is like a son to me. We buried him yesterday and that was one of the toughest things I have ever experienced. I supported my friend who kept saying �I can�t do this today�; my daughter who totally fell apart; my son who was grieving quietly, said my own good byes; as well as played in a brass band as a tribute to the boy/man that was no longer a part of the group or this world. On Monday I was informed that my job has been eliminated. I have been given another position with the same company; however, it is in an area that I do not have any experience in. I have to learn a whole new skill set in very limited time. To say that smoking hasn�t crossed my mind since Saturday night would be a lie. I have entertained the thought quite a few times however have chosen to ignore the desire for escape though a cigarette. The junkie never dies but deep inside I know that escape is no longer available to me. Quitting has taught me how to put one foot in front of the other and march forward no matter how difficult the circumstances. I have cried many tears, and they are still falling. My heart is broken and I don�t understand all that is going on around me. Making it from one moment to the next is about all I can do right now. I know that smoking won�t solve a thing and that life does go on. For those that feel I abandoned you please accept my apology. I will try to be back soon. Please do not think I am ignoring you. I am just having a really rough time right now. I will answer your emails as soon as I can. Please hang in there. There are so many around here that can help you through those rough patches. Just reach out and you will find support. That is what this community is all about. Congratulations to everyone on each smoke free day that is on your meter, be it a thousand or one, it is precious. Hold on to your quits no mat

Taking deep breaths. Thank you everyone. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/1/2005 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 532 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 10,651 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1862 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 46 [B]Hrs:[/B] 22 [B]Mins:[/B] 24 [B]Seconds:[/B] 15

KiwiKeith... I forgot all about your tragic event. I didnt' mean to bring it all back to the forefront for you. It's such a difficult, sensitive situation to deal with. So many thoughts of what will never be again. But others around her have taught me that I have to keep things in perspective so I guess that would mean.. so many good memories. I miss the child. I miss my friend that I could pick up the phone at any time and talk to. I don't know what to say. Others seem to be moving along and have accepted everything. The funeral is over and so is the ordeal. Just not for me. Maybe like stickin said.. have a cup of coffee and move on.. it doesn't have to be so hard. Well you know what, it really is hard. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/1/2005 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 535 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 10,707 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1872.5 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 47 [B]Hrs:[/B] 4 [B]Mins:[/B] 17 [B]Seconds:[/B] 6

I've been riding the emotional roller coaster today. The Christmas play at church was this morning. So many plays, so many memories. It's strange the turns that life takes on us at different times. We don't always know why but we know there is a reason. Dad was over this evening and his cigarette sure smelled good. Kind of sad that after all this time, with just a couple of set backs, the cigarette begins to smell good again. I don't ever want to be enslaved to smoking again. So I march on past all the junkie thoughts and continue to put one foot in front of the other. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/1/2005 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 534 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 10,697 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1869 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 47 [B]Hrs:[/B] 3 [B]Mins:[/B] 14 [B]Seconds:[/B] 15

Stickin... NOPE still means not one puff ever. I wouldn't dream of smoking now. It just wouldn't be worth it and it won't bring anyone back. I'm just emotional today. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/1/2005 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 534 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 10,698 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1869 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 47 [B]Hrs:[/B] 3 [B]Mins:[/B] 24 [B]Seconds:[/B] 13

Thank you so much Penquin. The memories come flooding by at all different times and do bring tears to my eyes. It is difficult because this time of year we usually spend a lot of time together. Not only is this boy gone but so is my daughter. She is off doing her own thing now and there is a void there. Thank you for your kind words. I'm so glad to see your meter still going. Perhaps tonight we can chat for a bit. I should be around. Lady [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/1/2005 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 536 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 10,733 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1876 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 47 [B]Hrs:[/B] 6 [B]Mins:[/B] 59 [B]Seconds:[/B] 59

Puttting one foot in front of the other today. Every Christmas eve we celebrated together with my girlfriend and her son and daughter. We will not be keeping that tradition today. I am already in tears but know that today moves forward. I plan on enjoying my family and I thank God that they are here with me. I have a house guest that smokes, but I will not no matter what because it won't help anything and it won't bring anyone back. Merry Christmas everyone. Enjoy your traditions and those you love! Lady [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/1/2005 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 541 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 10,828 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1893.5 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 47 [B]Hrs:[/B] 17 [B]Mins:[/B] 3 [B]Seconds:[/B] 45