bj,
Your last post embodies so many thoughts and feelings that are so common to newer quitters. Believe me when I say that you are NOT alone!
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Everytime I have a huge craving and feel like I can't do it anymore, I end up getting over it, and not smoking. When I was SURE I needed that cigarette to make it all better. I'm starting to realize how much of a head game smoking has played in my life.
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I'm SO glad you've figured this out! Honestly, you figured this out a hell of a lot quicker than I did. It took me over a month to figure this out, and some NEVER do! The only control that smoking had on us was control that we gave it! Nicotine is a plant! It cannot control us unless we GIVE it that control. When we realize that, the quit suddenly becomes easier because it's not the nicotine that makes us feel a certain way - it's our own minds that control us and the only way to regain control is to not give that power away to a plant. Way to go on this realization!
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I'm so happy I've quit but I am feeling sad at the same time, like I have lost my best friend
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The cigarette has been with you through thick and thin for most of your life. If you were happy, you smoked. If you were sad, you smoked. Any major events that happened in your life, you probably smoked through them. There's probably not one single person on earth who has shared as many intimate, personal and monumental events with you as the cigarette has. Of course you're mourning the "death" of the cigarette! It's completely normal! Many people have written "goodbye" letters to their cigarettes. Somebody (Gonnadoit, I think?) had a funeral for her cigarettes (I believe she used old butts that were yellow and nasty - not pristine, "pretty" new unsmoked cigarettes that could easily be dug up in a moment of insanity). I suggest gaining some closure for yourself. Write a letter or have a funeral. Say goodbye forever. This can help you with the grieving process. But just understand that it's completely normal to grieve. But also understand that this "friend" did nothing for you except steal your money, make you stink and try to kill you! What a friend, huh! But at the same time, it's also OK to mourn for a while.
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