Boy oh boy, can I relate. I just started a new job mostly because the last place that I worked at was full of nut cases. I'm in upper management and I gotta tell ya, its brutal up here. I had no idea, the more you move up in an organization, the more it feels like high school all over again. Jealousy, rivalry, plotting, planning.. gees, its really wierd. Anyway, I had worked at my last company for four year when I quit smoking. I didn't realize how much I felt like I was taking crap from them until I quit smoking and "stuff" just started flying out of my mouth. There were times that I should have just put my hand over my mouth and continued to scream ;-). I would say that I probably fell on the passive side of the fence and once I quit smoking started heading for becoming a very mean person. I was honestly VERY worried about it. Leaving that job seems to have helped a lot. Of course, I'm in upper management at the new job too, a HUGE firm with 70,000 employees, so I suspect the plotting and planning will eventually be worse ;-). But, I get to start over, deal with these people with a fresh perspective. Deal with the issues as they arise, instead of having to deal with them after having smoked negative emotions and reactions to them for years. I'm hoping now that I don't smoke I'll have to control my emotions but still confront any problems that arise as they happen. I'm going to have to use my voice to resolve the problem instead of saying OK and heading down stairs to smoke my anger. I think I still need to learn to be assertive, God I have to admit that. I do great WORK, but I'm not so sure I do great problem solving with people, especially if the conversation gets heated and emotional.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/5/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 175
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 5,268
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1225
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 17 [B]Hrs:[/B] 2 [B]Mins:[/B] 27 [B]Seconds:[/B] 53