It has been a rough road for me and one I wouldn't do again (that is why I did it only once). I've had to battle this quit inside of me and the battle is so worth it. This weekend was such a turning point in my quit that FINALLY I see all the heartache, depression, anger, etc etc was worth it. I now know what it is like to be a non-smoker as if I never smoked before. It is foreign to me and I love that feeling. When my husband goes out to smoke, it finally doesn't bother me anymore (it gags me instead lol). When he asked for me to buy him a pack, I went to go get him one and instead, turned around and asked him to buy his own. I literally felt like I was breakign the law.
All you newbies, this quit of yours is just that: YOURS. It is so worth the pain, the craves, the withdrawals, hell week, heck week and all the other weeks. You will feel so alive and well and have such wonderful smells of the holidays coming up. I am actually looking forward to that this year. I want to help just one person here and I would feel like I've accomplished alot in a lifetime. One day at a time was said to me once. Then for a while there, it was one minute at a time. Now its more again. I dont think about it often and I dont come here as much as I should. I will only come here because I want to help that one person who might be needing it. I think it was butterfly swimmer that asked for mentors. I am finally ready to be one too. I have the BEST mentor here (well to me she is - Lady). I've had friends also that I've met here help me, but that one mentor is what got me where I am now in my quit. She reminds me of things I dont think about that I should. She lets me know it will be alright, and she is ALWAYS available. Thanks!!!
Well, enough said, just wanted the newbies to know that it will be alright. Just give it time. "This too shall pass".
Hugs everyone!~!!
Kim
PS hint: tomorrow is 5 months for me woohoo party time!!!
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 6/7/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 152
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 3,811
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $615.6
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 13 [B]Hrs:[/B] 10 [B]Mins:[/B] 30 [B]Seconds:[/B] 17