I'm quitting tomorrow, or once I finish off these last 7 cigarettes. I thought about throwing them away and quitting this morning, but caved in and decided to smoke them and be done. I'm glad I did, because I realized something while I was having my first smoke of the day. I feel worse, not better, after I have that first cigarette. I put it off this morning and have been here reading posts instead. I found I didn't even want it that much. I have made myself go in my garage or outside to smoke for the past three years, which makes it uncomfortable when it's cold out. Although, when I'm having a hotflash, I like going to the garage! I was wondering how all this time I could go from 20 cigs a day to 10 with no problem, and could go to 8 with a little determination, but have never managed to just quit. I've really enjoyed reading all these posts, as they've made me feel "normal", and have given me even more determination to quit. I set Jan 1 as my date, but am going to move it up to tomorrow. Let's get the show on the road! I am a teacher and go back to school on the 8th, and want to get the worst over before school starts. I believe this site is going to give me that last boost of determination to quit for good. I hate smoking. I hate that I smoke. I hate what it does to my health. I hate coughing. I hate that I've let it control me. That said... I'm ready to bid smoke good riddance and have it out of my life. What pushed me over the edge is knowing that I can't be who I want to be and be a smoker at the same time. I need my lungs back, and I need my "thought time" on things other than "when can I smoke again"? That said... thanks for all the support here!
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/1/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] -1
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 0
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $0
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 0 [B]Mins:[/B] 0 [B]Seconds:[/B] 0