You have invested 45 days into this already and that is very impressive. I initially quit back in May, then started after 70 days, then quit for a week, then staryted smoking again, then quit for ..........
Anyway, I was in constant withdrawel from the back and forth. I finally had to get my act togather and either return to smoking full-time or quit. Quitting means NOPE. I can NEVER take another puff or I will be back to 3 packs a day. Had I choose to smoke, I would have been forced to accept that I would die within a few years, most likely.
I think you made a wise decision to quit. The Chantix is a wonderful aid. But that is all it is...an aid. The desire and stamina come from within. Sounds like you are a bit down and vulnerable right now. Guard the quit. This will pass...I promise. I still have occassional moments of 'You know, a smoke would make me feel better right now...' But, in reality, I know that is not true.
Keep the quit---it's worth it!
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 9/8/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 175
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 8,792
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1400
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 18 [B]Hrs:[/B] 14 [B]Mins:[/B] 54 [B]Seconds:[/B] 18