JoJo, I hate to say it but day one wasn't that tough for me. Day three (yesterday) was considerably worse. But I'm sure that everyone experiences the first while as a non-smoker differently. You may find that the first day was the worst.
I was here at SSC a couple of years ago and I remember that there was a lot of diversity in the way people experienced 'hell week'. Some suffered like crazy from the get-go... and some handled it a lot better. I didn't even join SSC until I had a full week in, and as I remember it, that first week was easier for me than it is this time 'round.
So I think there's a lot that factors in to how we're effected, not just the first week or two, but well into our quits. I remember reading posts from people who were a month in and were feeling terrific; they we're managing the cravings well... and really enjoying their lives. While others at 6 months were still dreading every day. They felt that they were under a constant barrage of overwhelming cravings... and they wondered if it was ever going to end.
I was one of those who really felt good after a couple of weeks. By the time I hit 90 days... I was feeling very comfortable as a non-smoker.
So, why did I go back smoking? Well, suffice it to say that I encountered the one thing I always knew would be my ultimate trigger, and when that happened... I didn't even try to overcome it. I think I was actually looking to kill myself at that point, so the cigs just seemed like a good idea.
Anyway, over two years later... I've moved on, my life has changed, and I'm back to a place where I feel good about my chances to become a non-smoker. More than that, really. I've laid the groundwork and created a life that will support my decision to become a non-smoker.
Perhaps I could have achieved that even in a more tenuous and chaotic environment, but I decided to wait until things stabilized. Now that they have, I need to quit smoking, and that's why I'm here.
This support group was a wonderful aid for me 2 years ago, and I believe it will be again. My prior experience taught me some very painful lessons, and I believe that they will hold me in good stead as I enter into my second major attempt to free my life from this addiction.
Anyway, this is day 4 for me. I can't live my