There is something to be said for the great amount of planning that should accompany quitting smoking. I, for one, did not do a lot of preparation with regards to coping with cravings or withdrawal, such as drinking water, sucking on candies or straws. Substitution was not something I felt was important for me. I did, however, do some thinking about my so called "back doors" - the events in your life that may happen, such as death of a loved one, job loss, etc, where you would really have to dig deep in your heart and find some other way to cope, other than smoking. There was one that never crossed my mind as ever occurring and it is that event which precipitated my choosing to smoke last weekend. While I quickly got back on the horse, I found it increasingly difficult to remain quit and have relapsed.
While not the best choice, it is one that I have to live with. It has caused me to take a closer look at who I am and who I want to be. Perhaps quitting smoking is not the only change I need to make. I need to look within myself for the answers. Certainly, quitting will help me in that process, but it is not the ONLY thing.
What I know for sure is that choosing to smoke did not help to remove my pain. It was still there and that choice added to it. I also know, without a doubt, that being smoke-free is where I want to be. I give myself permission to have fallen, but not to stay down. I will not quit quitting. This IS me. I still BELIEVE!
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$331,761.83
Amount Saved
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Days: 6051
Hours: 17
Minutes: 7
Seconds: 1
Life Gained
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45603
Smoke Free Days
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684,045
Cigarettes Not Smoked