BS,
I will be the first one to admit that I have always had a short fuse... When my parents had to ask me something, they would always start out with "Please don't get mad......."
I wasn't a raging bit** or anything, I just couldn't understand how other people would do & feel differently than me. Know what that is called? Immaturity.............. That's all.
So when I quit, I felt that anger rising to new levels. My 'snapping' point got so low that I was walking around with a non-stop frown on my face. Just waiting for the next poor soul to cross me......
When I realized that my emotions were out of control (ie- looking at the scared eyes of a 4 year old........), I knew that the only way to help me work through these emotional times was my doctor. Part of my depression is also anger. And being on medication now has brought me to a much more tolerable level.
I'm not saying that this is the way for you, but you've got to reconize it. It quite possibly could be that imbalance in your brain....... Learning to control our reactions is critical.
My sugestion: Take some time for yourself daily. Do something for yourself. As we get older, we most likely forget to do this. And when we forget for years at a time, well, we now have a lot of making up to do! So treat yourself................ You'll start to feel lifted and appreciated, if by no one other than yourself. But being at peace within is an invaluable trait. Try it.
4my2girls
p.s.- if nothing else, try yoga. It helps mind, body, and spirits.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 3/5/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 397
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 11,911
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1298.19
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 31 [B]Hrs:[/B] 22 [B]Mins:[/B] 45 [B]Seconds:[/B] 58