Do you remember way back when you started smoking? I sure do.
I remember getting nauseated, dizzy, confused, breaking out in a sweat, the coughing fits from inhaling the first, second, and third time (And More). I felt fear and anxiety because of the way that cigarette made me feel all over my body. I remember being clammy and white as a ghost as I staggered to the bed to lay down, terrified that I would throw up and of course, I did. Every fiber of my body was rejecting that nicotine and smoke, sending me every warning signal it could but BY GOD you should have seen me, I hung in there and I became the SMOKER I was for 27 years. I fought my way tooth and nail through all of those horrible, God awful side effects of smoking, just so I would fit in with the rest of the "cool" smokers. Once I fought my way through all of those warning signs and became a full fledged smoker, I then resorted to lying, sneaking, and bumming smokes to get my hands on them. I got a hold of them too. Oh yea, I got a hold of them alright until THEY got a hold of me. I went through all of that without a support site to help me learn how to smoke. I did it all by myself. I went through all of that pain and for what?
Now here I am, 27 years later, and I've gone through dizziness, nausea, breaking out in a sweat, fear that I may fail, anxiety from the Quit alone, headaches, confusion, completely out of it, fatigued, depressed, and cravings that have been totally exhausting and maddening. Every fiber of my body has begged for nicotine and smoke, tempting me at every turn but BY GOD look at me, I'm hanging in there to become a NON SMOKER for the rest of my life. I'm fighting my way tooth and nail through all of these horrible, God awful side effects of NOT smoking and I'm doing it to save my life and for the love I have for my family. I've been fighting my way through all of the side effects but I'm a full fledged NON SMOKER who doesn't lie, sneak, or bum smokes either. That's right, I don't have a hold of them and they don't have a hold of me. I'm going through all of this WITH a support site to help me learn how not to smoke. I'm doing it myself with my friends. I'm going through all of this pain and for what?
Ironic, isn't it? Pretty much the same pain but with a tota