Hi friends new and old (well, older ;) ).
I've missed you. I'm doing well - I feel great about this quit. I've had no substantial cravings (am aware than one may grab me by the throat and that little devil may sit on my shoulder urging me on at any moment though). A small update and some steps forward.........My husband (also still quit) and I had a nice brawl and I said "I'll show him, I'll go buy some cigs, smoke them and the argument will just go away". I came close but I didn't! It felt good to say "that's just plain stupid".
I walked through a bunch of people smoking outside the Mall in 20 degree farenheit snow/ice weather and felt good to be rushing by to my car without an urge - that was a big moment. My cousin is here from Ireland and smokes, again, it feels good to say "no thanks, I don't smoke".
As for my crazy, crazy, work schedule. I'm a bookkeeper for a very difficult venture capitalist (a bit much info), in any event, the man is getting 3 employees in one body. Unfortunately, while in the midst of an audit, my child got very sick and I was unavailable to work (that was the terms of the job - a VERY flexible schedule for low wages :( but worth the cut in pay). Anyhow, because I was absent due to my daughter, my boss thought it wise to "relay to me that the auditors thought I may have something to hide and that he's diffused the situation"..........well without boring you all even more, I've given this person 1.5 years of incredibly hard work - he gets from me in 2 days what would take some 1 week to complete. After the third month of hours in excess of 50 plus weekly, I've pretty much told him what I think of him (I am hurt that the comment was even passed to me - I'm home with blank signed checks to keep his business going and $$$$ in the bank for 1.5 years now - if I were going to hide something, I'ld be long gone by now). Speaking of which, I may be quitting tomorrow. My child goes to kindergarten in the Fall - life is too short, I've lost one too many loved ones to NOT realise that there's more to life than money. Sure, it'll hurt, but there's always another job. So spur me on to give it to him if he doesn't see the boundry he overstepped - I can take alot but do not call into question my integrity. Also, this old body can'