Last night I dreamed I smoked I dreamed I bought a pack and planned to quit - later when I felt better. It was the most realistic dream I've had. I'm not on the patch. I use only a few 2mg nicorette a day. It was so real, that when I got up, I started looking for the pack I bought, and it took me a couple of minutes to remember that I really had not smoked except for one a couple of weeks ago. I've even had a day now and then when I don't think of cigs at all.
Lately thought, it's been like starting all over. I don't know why either. It is as bad, and sometimes even worse than hell week and it seems to just be going on and on. What keeps me from smoking now, is that I know it isn't going to be as wonderful and my mind keeps telling me it will. When I first quit, in that first few days, having a cig really was eliminating those cravings. After 81 days, the reality is much different. A cig would be foul tasting, give me a headache and a cough, and be unpleasant to say the least. Why won't these withdrawal symptoms leave? Why have I gotten them back?
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/27/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 81
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 2,441
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $810
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 10 [B]Hrs:[/B] 17 [B]Mins:[/B] 37 [B]Seconds:[/B] 32
