Oh my very best SSC quit buddy!! HUGS GF So you would like reason why not to go back to smoking? Heck I'm living that reason. Lets see, I wanted to go back to smoking because I stopped caring when I found out I had cancer. Did it work? Heck no. Did it numb me like I expected it to? Nope. Was it worth it? No again. It also didnt make my feelings at that moment go away. It actually hurt worse. The hate one feels when they betrayed themselves by taking that puff is worse than that broken heart gf. I know, I did it.
You and I made a deal, we are in this together. We have been each other's backbones when the other was down. If you go down, I go down also. Just like you said to me in December when I took that one puff. GF, nothing is worth ruining and giving up on a 20 month quit. My gosh I could only fathon what that will feel like when I get there. Rewards? heck, I havent heard you mention a reward for quite a while. "Me time" nope you haven't done or mentioned that either. Hmmm, something wrong with this. Life in general, not just here, requires both those items. Otherwise, life burns you out.
GF things always happen for a reason, not coincidence and you and I both know why. Maybe this is your chance to become strong FOR YOU and not someone else. You just need to get yourself up and find something other than that lurking smoke to fulfill that need you so desparately need. Cigs are not the answer my dear friend. just a little reminder, I'm right behind you gf.
Hugs
Kim
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/10/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 73
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,845
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $310.25
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 6 [B]Hrs:[/B] 12 [B]Mins:[/B] 7 [B]Seconds:[/B] 30
