This is getting a little weird. Every time I get a thought in my head about something smoking or addiction or related, someone ends up posting about it. I don't want to ruffle feathers but I have never bought into the addiction as disease theory. I feel it's a perfect storm of genetic predisposition, life events, role modelling & cultural influences. I believe each element has to be present at the right time & in the right proportions for each of us, for an addiction to result. Nicotine addiction is not seen in society as being as serious as other addicitions, maybe because it's legal & "respectable" people do it. I think that's one thing that makes it so hard to quit. I know if I talked openly in the real world the way we do here, people would think I was whining, looking for attention or just a little whacky. For me,I knew I was addicted to nicotine but I never thought of myself as an addict. In fact, when I first started lurking here & reading the posts, I thought, "these people should get over themselves, they're smokers not smackheads." I truly did not believe there was a connection between smoking and repressed emotions the way that link is commonly made with other addictions. I now absolutely believe that not making that connection is the major reason I could not quit before. One thing that makes this such an evil addiction is that you can do it openly and the habit aspect of it, day in & day out re-inforces the actual addiction so that habit & addiction are not separate anymore, your habit fix becomes an addiction fix. Even those who do believe that addicition is a disease don't generally believe that it can be cured, that's why addicts are always recovering & never recovered. I know I will always be a nicotine addict, I'm afraid of ever not believing that because if I ever think I can have just one, I'm lost. What a ramble! Sorry, it just fell off my fingers onto my keyboard!
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]5/13/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 17
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 340
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $187.00
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 18 [B]Mins:[/B] 51 [B]Seconds:[/B] 20