audrey
I feel your answer lies in your last statement....."miss the old me" You were comfortable in your smoking.....six months and you still don't feel that comfortable in this NEW skin. I also went through this....and I am not really sure when it ended...but it DID.
Have you realized that now that you don't smoke...YOU are in control? the junky in you know this.....the old addiction is still there...lying low...and it's insidious....I truly think it "uses" these feelings to fight it's way to the top....causing us doubt and uneasiness....it whispers that we are never gonna feel quite the same and that is a negative......Acutually Audrey, feeling different is OK! Being a new, confident, in control person is NICE. Reach out and take hold of this. Embrace your new self. You ARE changing in ways....but they are NOT bad. You are learning how to handle life, emotions, actions, etc, withOUT nicotine. Let go of the thoughts that your old smoking self was somehow "better"...it wasn't.
It's sometimes frustrating and I remember that it didn't always feel "right".....but it will come....just hang tough. the prize is your freedom and you will finally have it firmly in your grasp...then these thoughts will let you be.
Katy
Kickin' ASH for......Five years, five months, one week, five days, 1 hour, 47 minutes and 19 seconds. 79562 cigarettes not smoked, saving $11,337.49. Life saved: 39 weeks, 3 days, 6 hours, 10 minutes.
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[B]My Quit Date: [/B]1/4/2002
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 1989
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 79,560
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $11,337.30
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Hours: 23
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