Thank you for your suggestions....I know I beat myself up but I guess that is part of the whole panic disorder thing too isn't it? Yes, I have decided that whenever something frightens me, or gets me in a panicky mood, I will try to challenge those thoughts with "there must be a reason I am scared, maybe my fear is pointing me in that direction, maybe fear is pointing me to what I need to do, that is to love the person, or thing that frightens me. Maybe God is directing it...I do believe that the spirit world is in charge of what is going on here on earth, and that we as individuals are more involved with spirit creatures than we realise. So I will try to challenge my fear/embarassment/shame thoughts with an arrow sign pointing me to who to love, and who to try and help. What do you think? Except of course, not imaginary, but real danger.
