Hi gr8fl - Im sorry to hear about that - I myself today slept most of the day and prayed that I could die and someone fighting to live in a hospital could take over my body....so you are not alone.
I hope you get over her soon and find someone else...k
Looks like you have faught it this far so maybe you are stronger than you think.
take care.
I just discovered this site and am very interested in all the feedback and info. As for myself, I am a 45 year old male who has been dealing with depression for most of my life. My main problem is that I allow other people's behavior to dictate how I feel about myself which we all know is wrong but happens none the less. I also perceive that I have your two basic (abnormal)conditions-low self esteem and an inferiority complex. I have recently been experiencing severe anxiety. It was triggered by a women who left me heartbroken by her unexpected behavior towards me. I am a caring. compassionate person and I realize this woman has issues of her own such as two failed marriages, alcoholism(recovering) and health problems. Yet it still it hurts like hell. I take meds for my condition, see a therapist, have excercised regularly and have read scores of self help books and listened to tape programs. I really wish I could die and have my organs used to save as many other lives as possible. Anyone ever hear that before? I have attempted suicide twice before over 25 years ago. Needless to say, it is very discouraging to feel this way (that's an understatement) and the only thing keeping me from attempting to get it right this time is realizing how it would affect the life of my 9 year old son as well as my mother who thank god is still alive and well and a true blessing. I am not looking for self pity nor do I feel sorry for myself. I just want to feel better and normal(whatever that is) Thanks for listening.
