Thank you boxerfan, Unhooked, alohakeia, Tom, Sam, Casey, Nilbey and Lainey for your thoughtful words and encouragement. I feel rested, and so much better. Babykitty does too:) You're right about stepping back for a better perspective and getting rest, Tom. We had a great walk and talk.
I think my greatest fear has been feeling too deeply and falling apart without that crutch. Well it was painful alohakeia, but I did just learn that I can deal with something tough without a cig! I want to remember that...
The first time babykitty was seriously mad at me she was about 3 and called me the worst word she knew. She yelled, "you... PIRATE!!" She's still sweet as pie 99 percent of the time but when I become really uncool and imperfect, may I post you again Unhooked and Nilbey?:)
I'm so glad I can choose not to smoke each moment/day. I never thought I could get out of that snare for real. I may not have control over my first thought, but I do over my second thought...
I don't want to hurt myself anymore. I want to be here for babykitty, and live a long, healthy, good life with my family.
Thanks for being the great people that you are.
Love, mk
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]6/11/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 21
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 315
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $84.00
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 2 [B]Hrs:[/B] 5 [B]Mins:[/B] 41 [B]Seconds:[/B] 30