Just thought I'd check in and let you all know how I'm holding up.
A couple of days ago, day 8, the thoughts became less frequent which was appreciated as I was getting a little tired. Day 9 wasn't too hard either considering my main control competitor was here (my mother-in-law). I didn't think about putting my patch on until 1130, so today I decided to drop down to the 7 mg. Things went down hill after that...my day started off busy, so I was slightly stressed and then she showed up again, which kind of threw me over the edge and I started craving. It was an emotional crave...anger, frustration, lack of patience....the kind where you want to feel anything other than what you are feeling, so you start thinking about medicating. I did have 'the thought'...just get some smokes...but I was able to easily nip that in the bud...but I was still looking for something....a drink?...food?...chocolate?....coffee?. I stood in the kitchen and said "stop"...."you don't have to feel this way...you are getting ready to spend a lovely day at the beach with your boys, and here I am being pissed off....and I don't even really know why." So I decided not to be pissed off anymore. Didn't really know what I was changing the mindset to....just off I guess.
So I was no longer ticked, but the thoughts were back. Lots of smoking going on at the beach. Trying to ignore, yet trying to catch a wiff at the same time. An enjoyable time, yet not....arghh.
I have quickly finished up my chores...got my pajamas on and I'm hitting the sack and little early tonight....I'm very tired of this day. Tomorrow is another smoke free day.
WWWWHHHHOOOOO HHHHHOOOOO.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]7/13/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 9
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 180
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $103.50
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 23 [B]Mins:[/B] 45 [B]Seconds:[/B] 32
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Quit Meter
$332,256.53
Amount Saved
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Quit Meter
Days: 6138
Hours: 1
Minutes: 19
Seconds: 42
Life Gained
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Quit Meter
45671
Smoke Free Days
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Quit Meter
685,065
Cigarettes Not Smoked