Mama Kitty,
So sorry to hear about your slip... and on vacation too! Vacations are VERY tough for many of us because we're in unfamiliar territory. For me, when I was ever in an unfamiliar place, I always smoked more because cigarettes were my shield that I hid behind. So I can identify.
But it sounds to me like you WANT to be smoke free... you just want to already be to the comfortable place that so many talk about and don't want to go through the "hell" that is quitting. Well my dear, very few good things come without a fight or without sacrifice. The more we have to fight for something, the more we appreciate it when we finally do get it.
It sounds like you have a very loving and supportive family who wants you to be healthy and alive for them years and years and years from now. What do you want?
As for not stopping because you can always press play again, the problem with that is that we CAN NOT be social smokers. We can't. We're not hard-wired that way. Social smokers have a genetic defect that allows them to smoke every once in a while and then not smoke again for several days, weeks, or even months without feeling the effects of withdrawals. We don't have that gene! So, it's either eject the movie from the VCR or play it until it's done... but the movie might be a whole lot shorter than you'd like it to be. Sorry... it's the truth.
Crave the Quit!
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]6/17/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 760
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 19,000
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $3,138.80
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 53 [B]Hrs:[/B] 15 [B]Mins:[/B] 30 [B]Seconds:[/B] 12