You know I read and hear that I am not alone with the discovery of emotion with quitting. That we no longer hide, that we face ourselves and all that we used to escape from by smoking.
I am burning bridges left and right people! I never used to cause a ripple.
I got huffy with a neighbor the other day whom I thought was calling to thank me but instead dumped a weeks worth of pet care on me with only one day's notice. They took care of my pets and although I felt I was starting to bear the brunt I think that relationship is over.
My brother just came to town with his family and didn't visit me or call. Although we just saw each other in May I felt jaded and pissed. Here's the email:
Hi Doug,
Ya know, I didn't want a big ordeal of a visit either since we just saw each other in May, but it would have been nice if you had wanted to get together for a drink.
Aud
Folks, I am not holding back and as good as you might tell me it is, it is bad! Family and neighborhood bridges burned so far. Can't afford to tell it like I feel at work!!!
I have posted before about identity, who is this person, etc.
I love and am proud that I am six months quit, but no man is an island
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I want the old personality back without the smokes. I guess this is impossible. I'm am changing all these things in my life also...for the healthier. Don't get me wrong, I'm no where near being an island, but I don't like causing waves where there were never any before.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]1/16/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 189
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 3,780
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $529.20
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 18 [B]Hrs:[/B] 11 [B]Mins:[/B] 23 [B]Seconds:[/B] 15
