I think I know exactly what you mean. With me, any little bit of discomfort makes me get afraid that my anxiety may be coming back, and so I start freaking out about that. It usually takes me a little bit to recognize the fact that I am freaking out about getting anxious, but when I do, that just adds a whole ton of frustration to the mix. It's like, "hey, cut it out, I'll never get out of this if I keep getting afraid of being afraid of being afraid...". But, then I feel like there's nothing I can do about it because if I try, then of course I'll just get more afraid about not succeeding (*and, guess what, that was just another fear!). It's been my experience that the best way to deal with that for me has been to talk or write all of my thoughts and frustrations out. I love this website for that reason; its a place I can "talk" to people without having to see them face to face. Talking about some of this stuff is a lot easier to do to a computer screen than a living, breathing person. Anyway, best wishes, and hope you feel better soon!