having ocd, i do this a lot. i'll get obsessional thoughts like 'you are crazy' 'you are going to hurt someone' 'you want to do ___'...so then i start asking myself 'am i crazy?' "mark, do you know where you are?'....so stupid and life disrupting. however i am learning to not do this!
Another observation that I'd love some feedback on...
It seems like I'm constantly testing myself to see how I would deal with this or that. I feel like a lot of my anxieties come from this exact way of thinking. For instance- I was riding on the bus this morning and I briefly started getting those depersonalization/derealization type feelings. But it was because I started asking myself these bizarre questions like "Where am I" or "Who am I". I know it sounds strange but when I panic I really seem to lose faith in these simple things. I have no idea why. Have any of you dealt with this? Sometmes when I panic I look into the mirror and feel like I don't even know who the heck I'm looking at. I suppose that deep down I DO know; but for some reason I feel like I ask myself these questions to test myself. To make sure everything is okay or something of the sort. Come to think of it, I think we all do this in any state of panic. "Is my heart okay"? "AM I going to pass out"? "What's wrong with me"?
What do you all think of this? Do you go through similar thought patterns?
I guess I'm hoping that I'm not alone on this one. It seems when my thoughts start racing I'm not really sure of anything! It's truly amazing... and frightening.
Thanks for responding.
Sincerely,
-Tony
