Sorry I missed the bonfire Anna, I have had a terrible weekend. Everywhere I turn I see something that reminds me of my son. My other son stayed with friends all weekend, so I was alone most of the weekend, and I have been on a whale of a crave since Thursday. Even as I write this, I am having hot flashes, sweating, and wanting a smoke worse than ever. It's been like this all weekend, I had to leave the poker game Saturday evening because of it. I actually thought I would stop and buy a pack, but I drove home, constantly telling myself it wouldn't help any. I'm not sure how long I can keep it up, I can feel my resolve getting weaker and weaker as time goes by. A 4 day crave just isn't fair, I know I'm missing my son, I know I'm sad over him leaving, but I also know it's for the best. So why a 4 day crave? It's like hell week all over again. I really want to stay smoke free, and I guess I need to keep reminding myself of that. The junkie in me is still alive and stronger than I thought, it reminded me that this battle isn't anywhere near over. I was almost blind sided, I probably should have came here for support, but I didn't. I just took it one hour at a time. 79 days in and feeling like day 2, what an awful addiction we have.
My Mileage
Smoke-Free Days: 79
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 3,808
Amount Saved: $758.40
Life Gained:
Days: 11 Hrs: 11 Mins: 58 Seconds: 9
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Quit Meter
$38,922.98
Amount Saved
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Quit Meter
Days: 1023
Hours: 18
Minutes: 23
Seconds: 32
Life Gained
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Quit Meter
5703
Smoke Free Days
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Quit Meter
171,090
Cigarettes Not Smoked